“Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.”

 - John Lennon

I  have always been driven to take charge and take action by situations that didn’t satisfy me or weren’t part of my ‘other plans’. What drove me were the hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking and self-pity mentioned in the book, Alcoholics Anonymous. My plans invariably used self-delusion and self-seeking to protect me from the fear and self-pity caused by my demands that life meet my terms. All they accomplished instead was an isolation from the moment, an insulation from reality.

What I’ve learned by working the steps with my sponsor and practicing the principles is that I’m not in charge and every uncomfortable feeling doesn’t need to be fixed because it isn’t broken. I can make my plans and isolate myself from the world around me or I can open my eyes, see life before it passes me by and accept my feelings as part of my humanness. Once I start relying on a Power greater than myself, trusting that I’m safe and protected, I can experience the fullness of a life lived awake.

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